Turning 40 and a new beginning!

After I went through a hardship 10 years ago with a condo litigation disaster I was in limbo. I felt as though I was undeserving of having nice things. I never felt at home in this place. I never really unpacked and no pictures were hung. I was stuck in inaction. I kept saying to myself, "as soon as I get married, I will move out of this place"

"As soon as I make more money I will renovate"

"I will sell it and just start over..."

As soon as, bla bla bla...it wasn't happening.

My husband has not shown up yet...

The market wasn't optimal for selling my condo, and if I did sell it...where was I going anyway?

So, I took action!

I asked for help.

Asking for help requires authenticity, and vulnerability.

I gave my client/Friend a budget to paint and decorate my condo.

I came home from my Thanksgiving weekend with my family Monday, October 9 and my clients Patricia and Sandra had worked some magic!

Turns out all along I just needed to change my mindset. HATE IT...CHANGE IT.

It is beautiful.

I love where I live. For the first time ever.

I am so grateful.

Take action. Ask for help. You are never stuck.

“From what I’ve seen, it isn’t so much the act of asking that paralyzes us—it’s what lies beneath: the fear of being vulnerable, the fear of rejection, the fear of looking needy or weak. The fear of being seen as a burdensome member of the community instead of a productive one" Amanda Palme

On Thursday October 12 I woke up and I was 40!! FOURRRRRTY! WOOOOOSH. It felt very powerful.

Turning 40 is awesome! New decade- new beginnings!

Oh Haaaaay 40! Let’s do this!

October 12 was a great day to be Deanna Harder. 🤙🏻sleep in- a full 10 luxurious hours of sleep 🤙🏻 drinking espressos enjoying my new digs🤙🏻leg workout - heavy and intense!! 🤙🏻facial 🤙🏻pedicure party with cool people 🤙🏻drinks and food at Cactus Club on Jasper! Good friends and a lot of laughs is all I could ever ask for!

I was spoiled and I am so grateful!!

40 - what does 40 even look like?

Like this...🙏🏻

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Here is a sneak peak of my condo!

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It is cozy and warm. I am in love and want to invite people over for wine for the first time ever.

The moment we get clear about exactly where we are in life, we have the power to transform.

Are you currently owning exactly where you are?

Do you feel stuck?

Hit reply and fill me in!

We are in this together!

XDH

Fitbabe.

Radiance Retreat 2017

Hello everyone, I just wanted to check in and give you a little feedback on my Radiance Retreat which I arrived home from at 4:00am . We had many delays with the flights, but this is how traveling is and instead of getting upset and anxious about it, I decided to let it teach me a lesson in patience and being mindful in the present. Flipping this around in my head gave me the ability to sit with the discomfort and relax into my surroundings. I spent the last 4 days with 40 very amazing female health and fitness professionals and some who are business coaches and have a passion for health and fitness. We learned all things online business, platform building, trusting in our own expertise and not waiting until we feel ready to jump into deeper connections with our clients, friends and loved ones. There was some very strong personalities which at first made me feel a little intimidated and I put my guard up. I get defensive when someone comes into my personal space, but I realize now that I need to be more comfortable around other alpha women and know we are all in this together. I have a hard time trusting women, and that is another reason I signed up for this retreat. I let myself soften and allowed myself to sit quiet and listen instead of having to be the loud, sarcastic, aggressive Deanna. NOT EASY.

But when it was my turn to speak, I let myself say and be authentically ME, which was the best thing I could ever do, since the theme of the weekend was "TAKING UP SPACE". So I did.

Many women came up to me and asked me for advice and so that validated my decision. I spoke of food obsession freedom, moderation 365, and how I use satisfaction bites in my daily nutrition to navigate my hunger, my energy and my cravings. I love that I am no longer needing to follow a strict diet to stay sane and happy in my body. We also dove into hormones and how body change requires hormonal balance or it doesn't matter how much you diet and how strict you eat. I loved exploring this.

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FITNESS TALK!

We did yoga on Venice Beach, we learned soft and hard kettlebell sessions and I got some extra work in on Olympic lifting. ( Snatches in particular) I will be using this in my program design for you all, if they are something that fits into your goals and interests so get ready! https://www.onnit.com/academy/the-sport-of-kettlebell-how-to-compete-in-girevoy-sport/

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Another neat workout called MOVNAT was offered right after our kettlebell sesh, which connected the ladies to their inner child! They crawled and jumped and it was a flow of movement and dance on the beach! More info here: https://www.movnat.com/ RECLAIM YOUR NATURE. | MovNat, LLC www.movnat.com We are not meant to live in a confined environment. We are not meant to be disconnected from the natural world and our own true nature. Chronic pain, immobility ...

VENICE BEACH! #swoon

Venice Beach is a land of opportunity to network and grow ANY business in the fast lane. You can be in the spot light. You get eaten up and spit out if you are not staying relevant, sexy and popular. It is also the land of the comparison trap. There are always people more attractive then you, who dress better, have nicer hair, and who seem to never have anything bad happen to them. However, there is room for everyone and the scarcity mindset keeps us stuck. I decided to let myself feel like I was just where I needed to be, and the abundance was flowing.

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I have come back feeling confused on where I want to take my business, brand and personal life next, which means there will be a pivot very soon. Action is the antidote, and so, when I am ready, I will be ready. Gradually, gradually, gradually....SUDDENLY. I will make some changes. That works better than sitting in worry and angst. ( for those who train with me in person, don't worry, I am most likely sticking around Edmonton for a while 😊 You are stuck with me! )

So, I want to ask you, what are your passions and goals that you see yourself working on in the future. I want to know how I can help you move into action. This can be around fitness, food or mindset around your body. How do you want to feel? What if you never lost another pound? Would you be ok? OR, how do you want to look and feel in an year from now. If you lost 10lb how would life be different? Would your friends treat you better? Coworkers? Husband? What would better or worse? Are you enjoying the process?

You may have been looking at the end result instead of the journey...and so, if I can help you love the journey along the way, then I feel we both win!

I am grateful to be able to coach all of you, and want to always level up to be better. Hit reply with any questions or comments. I will respond to every one!

Love and hugs, Deanna

PS: We crunched some numbers in a mastermind session, and it came up that I have done over 28,800 personal training sessions since I began my personal training career in 2001. I never realized how many hours have added up. I am an expert and have worked with every single struggle you are going through now. I am your coach....ask me how I can help!

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2016- A Year in Review

Hey there Fitness Freaks! I am not here to talk about my New Years resolutions. Nothing drastic is going to go down on January 1, other than getting up and starting 2017 with the same mindset and drive that I had in 2016. You see, I am a goal seeker, not a goal setter. For me, it is actually very black and white. I choose a goal, and then I go after it like a terrorist with intention and desire. So, I decide, I declare and I deliver. I have no idea how I became this way. I do not have parents who were highly driven. They were very content with a simple and quiet life. To me they are the King and Queen as they are happy and they are not constantly searching for that next best thing. Me however, I am a seeker. I am seeking challenges on purpose that make me uncomfortable. So, therefore, it seems very simple for me to attack a goal.

1. Set goal

2. take the obvious action steps to get there

3. trust the process

4. Do all the FUCKING things that allow me to get it accomplished!

NEXT!

2016 gave me a swift kick in the ass. I had some health issues that negatively impacted my life. I see now that these issues came into my life for a reason. There was a lesson in the madness, and for that I am grateful. These situations happened to me FOR me. So today, instead of talking about setting resolutions for 2017, I would like to ask you to join me in reflecting on 2016 and then ask yourself,

1. What didn't work?

2. What did work?

3. What were your major moments?

4. What can you learn from what didn't work as well as what did work? How can you use this information to set your intentions for 2017? Do you notice any patterns in your behaviors that are giving you blatant clues?

Let's get real, real, real here! From the heart..be honest. Take 30 minutes and sit and answer the above questions, then hit reply and let me know what you came up with! I love a good discussion.

Here are my answers:

What didn't work:

1. Hating myself. NOPE. FAIL. The more I hated myself, the more I hated how I looked naked, the more I punished myself more exercise and less calories, the worse I felt. Don't fucking do this ok????

2. Not owning my shit. Until I got really honest and uncomfortable with my issues around food and training, I was living a lie. I was a fraud. I didn't like how I showed up in the world.

3. Shutting people out. Especially my girlfriends. I fell deep into a depression, which was getting worse the more I would shut out my friends.

4. Being embarrassed by my braces on my teeth. I didn't smile for 2 years. When I stopped smiling, I know this made my depression worse.

5. Training every client that hired me. I know now I can only commit to training clients who I can really connect with. There is always an exchange of energy between every person you come into contact with. Choose carefully who you spend time with, as the wrong people will suck you dry.

6. Saying no to anything scary or that made me uncomfortable. Saying no kept me in a bubble. When I chose to say YES...things changed..that is leading us now into question number 2...

What did work:

1. Loving myself! OBVI! Loving yourself may mean that you appear to be unloving to others at times. This will be one of the most difficult aspects of self love.

2. Training to be strong, and not for a certain look. When I stopped chasing the ridiculous goal of looking shredded all the time, my body started to cooperate and I got leaner and stronger too!

3. Hiring a coach! I couldn't get out of my own way. Hiring my coach Jordan Syatt: (http://www.syattfitness.com/) was a massive game changer. He could see what was holding me back, and my programming is now out of my hands. This may have been one of the best decisions I could have ever made for my health and my business too. Having a coach is making me a better coach. Exercise works better if you enjoy it too, not as a punishment for what you ate.

4. Opening myself up to relationships with men. Sex works better if you enjoy it. Finding my confidence through self love made me enjoy being naked with a man and loving sex! ** even in the backseat of my car- I felt 16 again! ** At 39 years old, having the flexibility to do this is another reason to stay FIT AF!

5. Being vulnerable and starting my blog. I took action and decided to lay all the cards out on the table. I wanted to heal from my ED and obsessive exercise addiction, so I shared my story with the world. It is holding me accountable to continue to stay true to my goals and NEVER GO BACK!

6. Saying Yes...and dealing with it later. It is amazing and liberating. Trust yourself.

What were my highlights- TOP MOMENTS?

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1. Ripping my carpet out with Donloree! It was the start of a new beginning and a powerful friendship. Donloree, you are my angel.Check out my girl here: http://www.donloree.com/

2. Hiring my coach. I love you Jordan!

3. Getting to the bottom of my hormone issues. I now know I have a unicornate uterus, which means I can't have children. I have accepted this and feel better knowing that I am totally healthy and thriving even without my cycle. Life is a gift, and my uterus is perfectly imperfect. I really would have never known about this unless I wanted to start trying for babies, which I really am happy was not my path. It would have left me broken hearted. Now I feel so empowered by having this information in my corner.

4. Dating again. I love kissing. I love connecting, laughing and smiling just because it feels good to be intimate and close with a man.

5. Getting a photoshoot after my braces came off with the VERY TALENTED Demetri Giannitsios! He made the vision of my new brand Deanna Harder Fitness come alive, as you can see from the photos on this blog. I can't thank Demetri enough and am eternally grateful! We are now partners for life and I can't wait to work with him again. Check him out here: http://www.demetrigianni.com/

6. Flying to Vancouver to be with a man- SAYING YES TO ADVENTURE! It was exciting and liberating to just be trusting and empowered in my female sexuality. I didn't need validation from anyone. I could enjoy sex and not feel bad for it. Why don't more single women do this? I went in with no expectations which then left me with no expectation hangover. It’s all about that energy exchange. He is a wonderful friend and a super cool dude! :)

7. I auditioned to be a trainer in a weight loss TV show, and I got chosen! WOW RIGHT???? More on that in 2017. But essentially, myself and my client Angie were brought back for a second casting call, which led to signing a contract with Anaid Productions for a TV documentary on weight loss. I again have ZERO expectations and if we get signed on by a major network, then great, if not...I gave it 100% effort and took a chance. Play small, stay small!

8. Starting this wordpress blog. I love it. I love that I found Jill Coleman and signed up for her 6 week online fitness business course and took ACTION! I can't thank her enough. Check out Jill here: http://jillfit.com/

Going into 2017 I am going to stay true to my new found self. I am going to be vulnerable and share stuff that makes me uncomfortable. I am going to keep being loud, and not censor my thoughts or feelings. I will keep showing up apologetically ME. I am not going to hide that I have a fucking sailor mouth. I am going to keep getting stronger and stay true to my goal of #deadlifting 300lb and doing a back squat of 180lb at the body weight of around 120lb. I am going to eat all my fav foods in #moderation365 and drink #wine when I want to in moderation, even if it is 1pm on Tuesday. I am breaking all my former rules and I trust myself that I will be ok. I will show up to each and every client and open my arms with trust and excitement. I will be better than before. I know this. I will keep letting myself love greatly, even if it means I will get rejected again. I am love, and I will always love hard.

So, now...it is your turn. I can't wait to read your answers. Please take the time to write me back and let's get a discussion going. I will answer every single one of you!

Love ya,

Deanna

(Fitbabe)