Eating Disorder Awareness

Eating Disorders in the Fitness Culture

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I spoke on @ctvedmonton during Eating Disorder Awareness week about my obsession with exercise.

I would work out for hours a day.  This included fasted cardio before a full day of training clients, because that was what I thought I needed to do to be a successful fitness leader. I would lift weights on my break in between clients. I was exhausted and I felt like exercise controlled my life.

My body was still never good enough. My personal relationships were suffering because I was choosing the gym over all other social outings. I would always feel anxious about eating at restaurants where I couldn't control exactly what was in my food. I didn't drink wine, which I LOVE!! 🍷❤️ I got help, and everything changed. I started to question my relationship with exercise, decided that in order for me to run a successful business, stay sane and healthy, I just couldn't continue training for hours a day. 😖😖😖😭😭

Fast forward to Saturday morning.  🤙🏻🤙🏻 On days like today I feel SO empowered by short and INTENSE workouts that make me feel fit, stay healthy and strong AF without having to spend all day in the gym. 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻👍🏻👍🏻👍🏻 On April 7, Katie Chamberlain has put together a seminar,  along with the help of a Psychologist and a RD, to discuss Eating disorders and Excercise Dependance-when does something healthy become not so good?? 😔😔😔😔 Please see the Eventbrite link below. Is it time you questioned your relationship with exercise? Are you training to burn calories or to earn your food for later? Do you feel like you have to train in order to eat? Can you take at least one full rest day a week or does the idea of rest make you anxious? 😎 Let's have a talk. We want to help. Love you, Deanna

A Competitive Dancer's Recovery Story

I am here tonight to share an amazing story of a woman who went from broken to BAD ASS!  This is a testimonial of what can happen when you stop training and eating in way that is harmful and disordered, to training and eating to THRIVE. 

I have spoken a lot lately about my eating disorder and exercise addiction. 

My goal is to help women stop OBSESSING over exercise and RESTRICTING their nutrition. I want to help them see results by training in a healthy way, without slipping back into their restrictive or disordered eating tendencies. 

For me, pursing what I thought was the perfect body stole my health and happiness. The crazy amount of sacrifice it took to become lean provided little (if any) reward. I have found much more fulfillment in eating and training well, treating my body with love, and appreciating all the amazing things my body does for me each day.

Please take a moment to read this amazing story of my client who has asked to keep her identity private. She has been super vulnerable here, and I can't thank her enough for sharing this with me and my readers.

"For as long as I can remember, I have been hyper aware of my body—yes, that’s part of the course for being a woman, but it was also part of being a competitive dancer.

Every negative thought, every critique in my head was in the sound of my dance teachers voice and was matched with an urgency to fix it or focus on it in a way that only a teenage girl can.

At 5’8” and 96 pounds there wasn’t many flaws to find, but in a room full of mirrors and an opinionated teacher, the slightest crease or deviance from the group felt like there was a spotlight highlighting my every insecurity.

My fingers felt too stiff, my chin too soft, my back too much of a sway, my ribs too flabby, and my toes not pointed as much as a classmate next to me. As silly as those critiques seem to me now, it was my entire world back then.

I remember standing over the scale at my first weigh-in and vowing to myself that the needle would never pass 100—as my lunches dwindled to cucumbers and my dinners to cliff bars, my goal seemed realistic.

My weight was remaining steady and I felt the itch to do more, apparently dancing 25-35 hours a week wasn’t enough. Soon I was taking acrobatic hot yoga every morning before high school, and doing the Insanity workout DVD’s every evening after I put in my hours at the studio.

I felt like I was doing something right; my teachers began to praise me, I got the centre positions in numbers, was asked to do demonstrations to the class, and was seen as a “studio favourite” by making student of the week—who cared that I went through a bottle of Tylenol a week and had my physiotherapist on speed-dial? So naturally, I felt like I needed to take it further.

Soon I was kneeling over the toilet at thanksgiving because the mashed potatoes weren’t worth it, and I was pushing myself through minor injuries because the perfect student makes it look easy.

After several years of this method, the minor injuries turned into major ones—ripped fascia’s in my calves, dislocated hips, ripped patella femoral ligament in my knee, ripped hamstrings, cracked bones in my back/neck, and turning a simple heart murmur into a condition requiring daily medication and tracking by a cardiologist.

I danced my last show when I was 18, and underneath all of the physical pain, I felt agony instead of relief. I had spent my entire life dancing, had no friends outside of the studio, and now had all of this spare time to overthink.

Now, I have what I was missing—balance. With the help of Deanna, I have been able to focus on being strong and healthy, finding clothes that are worthy of the body I have worked for, and understanding that I deserve all of the good things in life.

At 127.4 pounds (and climbing), I feel happier and more successful than I ever did at 96 pounds—all it took was looking at my life in a different perspective, several years to repair the emotional damage, a supportive partner, and good food and wine. 

-xo

If you feel like you are going through something similar, please reach out to me. 

When your body is talking to you, try your best to listen. It's not easy, but every little bit gets you closer to appreciating that our bodies are working so hard to keep us going. 

The road to recovery is long and hard, but it is worth it.  My eating disorder is a part of me but it is not all of me.

Love Deanna.

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“Wine makes every meal an occasion, every table more elegant, every day more civilized.”

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Every time I drink a glass of wine, I take time to sip it, savor it and enjoy it. Wine has given me such a gift. It slows me down in a way....it is not easy for me to do this, but wine, wine helps me slow down, and be in the moment. It is almost meditative. I think about life, dreams and have gratitude.

#Wine has helped me heal my relationship with food. It makes every meal an event.

** see the quote above in my title!**

So some of you may think I am crazy. You may drink a few glasses of wine and then go off the rails.

For me it is not about getting a buzz...which, by the way is fabulous too, it is about slowing down, tasting my food, sipping my wine and just well, relaxing.

I have put too much work in to go back to my old ways- of restricting and over-training.

I healed my ED through wine. I had no idea that you can enjoy all things in moderation, and still look and feel fabulous!

I can enjoy food, wine and life...

I owe a lot to wine. The ritual, the knowledge, you have to appreciate it.

So amazing.

I have been taking wine education courses and am in the early stages of becoming a bit of a wine expert! This is so exciting for me. I love learning all about the process of wine making. You learn about horticulture, geology, weather, culture, and history, and all sorts of things! It is an art form. I love it.

I talk a lot about drinking wine with my clients. Not because I think they too should drink wine everyday or because I think it is a perfect health food.

I talk about it is because it is an element of my diet that helps me maintain my weight.

Not directly, but it helps take the edge off cravings so that throughout the day I don't have to rely solely on willpower to avoid over eating because later in the evening I will get my craving met with a glass of wine.

Indulging in your treat a few times a week will not make or break your physique but whether you are mindful or not will.  

It’s not my job, or your job to eat 100% perfect 100% of the time. It’s our job to eat foods we love, take care of our bodies and show ourselves some respect through our food choices. That means choosing foods that satisfy us both physically and psychologically. Take the pressure off. There’s more to life than obsessing over what you eat or don’t eat.

If you are struggling with being too strict or avoiding foods or eliminating them from you diet and want a little food freedom give this a try and let me know how it goes.

You can even email me right now for accountability and tell me what food you are going to practice with.

“Wine makes every meal an occasion, every table more elegant, every day more civilized.”

......And let us all appreciate the #Parisian life! 

Cheers!

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How do I stop myself from binge eating?

"Deanna, I am at the point where I'm wondering if I'll ever "get it"? You know? I think my biggest challenges are snacking (working from home - the pantry is right there!) and then getting busy, putting my needs last, and then being starving and making a poor choice or just eating too much. I find I can't stop eating at night. What can I do?"From Food Crazed Momma

Ahhh yes! Food Crazed Momma!! I know how you feel.

3 years ago, I was in a completely different state of mind. I was completely obsessed with food. What to eat, how much to eat, tracking calories, do I eat "clean foods" only or do I try the moderate route? How often do I eat? If I don't eat every 3 hours, will my metabolism slow down. Will I then get fat if I only eat a 1000 calories?

I literally got so tired of the food worry, that I just gave up...for awhile anyway. I was about 7-10 pounds over my comfort weight, I was binge eating all the time, and then feeling like I had to make up for my binges with massive amounts of exercise. I was exhausted, mentally and physically. And honestly, I was tired of trying. I just wanted to be normal, whatever that meant.

"Why in the hell can't I figure this out? I am a CSEP Certified Fitness and Lifestyle consultant, I have been coaching this stuff for years, I have been coached by some of the best in the business, I have all the certifications, etc. This can't be that hard!"

And I knew I wasn't happy with myself. Inside or out. I wanted to live a life where I could just eat all food in moderation, stop obsessing about having a treat now and then and having it not lead to doing "guilt" cardio.

I wanted to fuel my body properly, get to a feel good weight, enjoy food and stop feeling like a psycho.

You need to decide that your environment can't dictate how you eat...instead YOU are always in control of what goes into your mouth! Working at home doesn't have to be the reason you can't control yourself around food. Your goal is to be around food at any time and be ok!

Instead of: "Ugh, I have NO willpower", we practice: "I am in control of everything I put in my mouth."

Instead of: "I can't control myself around carbs (or sugar or alcohol)", we practice: "I am disciplined and eat only what my body needs."

Just like anything else, mindfulness is a skill to be learned. One that takes practice. You know this, I have been tossing it in here and there lately.

It requires you to investigate other factors such as sleep, stress, hunger, energy.

Mindfulness....

It requires questions like:

Am I still hungry?

Can I stop eating right now?

Am I full?

Am I eating because I am stressed and anxious or haven’t gotten enough sleep?

It does take effort in the beginning but with time it becomes more automated to the point where you don’t have to think about it quite as much if you commit to it now!

It begins with slowing down the process of eating so we don’t feel the need to eat everything all at once.

Weight loss will happen naturally if you feed your body properly- not deprived, not stuffed...your weight will level out if you stop eating when you are not hungry.

I love digging deep into this stuff....let me know if this was helpful!!

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“Should I report an eating disorder?”

Hey guys! Because it is Eating Disorder Awareness Week ( http://nedic.ca/news/eating-disorder-awareness-week ) I wanted to discuss the sensitive subject on what to do if you suspect someone in your gym could be suffering from an exercise addiction or an eating disorder. It is extremely uncomfortable to watch someone day after day whittle themselves down to a skeleton like frame and not say anything. I received this question from a reader and originally posted it over at Feminist Figure Girl and wanted to share it over here on Deanna Harder Fitness. "We know that through open, supportive dialogue, we can help break the shame, stigma and silence that affect nearly a million Canadians living with a diagnosed eating disorder - and the millions of others struggling with food and weight preoccupation. Our message can bring important information about these illnesses to people across the country and spread hope to those affected."

Here was the question submitted by John, who was concerned with a young woman who he suspected was battling an eating disorder.

Dear Fitbabe, Hello, I am a regular gym goer, and have been observing a young girl who has an incredibly thin frame. She is always on the cardio equipment when I arrive, and is still on it after I have trained for an hour, showered and had a steam. I have mentioned her to the front desk staff and they say several others have brought it the attention of the personal trainers in the gym, but it is a difficult subject.  Should I approach this girl with concern? Doesn’t the gym have a moral obligation to intervene? I am worried about her and I don’t even know her!

Best Regards, John

A:  Thanks for raising this important issue, John. Your question is quite timely as I have been well aware of this happening in the gym I train out of. I too have noticed a young woman who is very thin, does hours of cardio, and then weighs herself obsessively in the ladies change room. Being a Professional Fitness and Lifestyle consultant, and someone who once suffered from disordered eating and obsessive exercising myself, I feel that I have the scope of practice to approach such individuals; however, this is always done WITH CARE AND CAUTION.

First of all, most personal trainers are not counselors, nor doctors, and may not have the required skills for undertaking this type of intervention. What’s more, it is difficult to make assumptions about who has an eating disorder based on appearance alone. There are in fact many people who look pretty normal but are suffering from bulimia, binge-eating, and other disordered eating patterns. I realize that it is possible to make an educated guess, and yet there are many cases where someone is hiding a disorder very well. If you decide to act, I think that it would be appropriate to establish a one-on-one relationship with the person before bringing up this issue. Then, in a non-threatening way, you can raise the subject. This approach would prevent the person at risk from feeling embarrassed, angry, or ashamed, potentially driving them toward increased isolation. Hopefully a trainer at the gym could develop this relationship, and then have some pamphlets, phone numbers and websites ready to offer help. I would suggest that you do not approach this person yourself unless you have the relationship mentioned above.

For me, this question raised general considerations about the potential for enabling unhealthy behaviors in our society. Why is it that fast food chains are not required to refrain from selling their horrible fattening foods to obese individuals, knowing that it is contributing to their disease? Alcoholics are not refused service in bars, gambling addicts are free to enter casinos. It seems that gyms should be similarly allowed to enable those with eating disorders to purge calories! After all, gyms are profit-driven businesses looking to drive up sales, are they not? Maybe they turn a blind eye to such paying customers for this reason. Just a thought….

More seriously, I hope that your gym does have someone with the right qualifications to get this person on the road to recovery. Such an intervention could save someone’s life.

All the best in health,

Fitbabe

Have you noticed people, men or women in your gym who may be over exercising to the point of serious health concerns? Have you brought it to attention of the staff at the gym? What was their response?

OR..do you have an eating disorder? If the way you eat and think about food interferes with your life and keeps you from enjoying life and moving forward, then that is disordered eating. Take it seriously and talk to someone who can help. You don't need to wait for a diagnosis by a doctor.

Clinical Eating Disorders

What exactly are clinical eating disorders? Clinical eating disorders include:

Anorexia nervosa

- When you lose a lot of weight because you're hardly eating anything, and might over-exercise. You probably can't or don't admit how underweight you are. You may not initially look very thin, but may be far too thin to support your health. You can be so thin that every bone in your body shows, but still feel "fat". When you feel fat it makes it hard to ask for help or hear advice from others because, to you, "fat" has come to mean "being bad". You could also know that you are much too thin but don't make changes because you're so afraid of food and gaining weight. To you, this would represent losing control over yourself.

Bulimia nervosa

- When you binge and purge. You eat out of control and then try to get rid of the calories. You fast, make yourself vomit, abuse laxatives, or exercise too much. These ways of purging harm your body and don't help you accomplish what you want. Your weight may go up and down a lot.

Binge eating disorder

- When you eat so much you're uncomfortable, eat to comfort yourself, eat in secret, or keep eating as part of a meal or between meals. You feel a lot of shame or guilt about your eating. Binge eating is also called compulsive eating. It is not the same as bulimia because you do not usually try to get rid of the food you've eaten.

Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (ED-NOS)

- When you experience a mix of anorexia, and/or bulimia, and/or binge-eating symptoms, but don't fall neatly into one of these medical categories, you may have an Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (ED-NOS). If you have an ED-NOS, you should also receive the help and resources provided to individuals who have a "neat" clinical diagnosis.

Any food and weight issues that limit your ability to live a full and pleasurable life are of concern. It doesn't matter if you don't clearly fit one of the clinical categories above – you still can and should seek help.

http://nedic.ca/give-get-help/overview

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